The truth is, I'm not really ready to lose weight.
But the truth also is, I'm not ready to stay this heavy and risk getting heavier. I want to move more, do more. So my goals this week are to exercise 30 minutes everyday (and track it- see tab) and journal about my food choices. I would also like to focus on drinking water and making some healthier food choices, especially in the quantity department. I intend to track my weight loss (see the tab) but I am not setting any specific weight loss goals at this point or implementing any special or specific diet.
I have reduced the size of my morning cereal, with no ill effects. I went back to measuring with a measuring cup: 1 cup Grape Nut Flakes and 1 cup milk. I used 2% because I was out of Skim, but that has been rectified. I did have more pizza at lunch than I should have - I think I just wanted to get it out of the house! I did have a salad with dinner. And snack was hot chocolate made with skim dry milk, cocoa and a little sugar. Chocolate fix fixed!
Here is the song that has been an inspiration for many life changes. It played in the car while I was thinking of how I might be healthier and what I could realistically commit to. -
From "This is Your Life" by Switchfoot
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
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I hope in one sense that I will always answer no, I am not perfected. But in the sense that I believe the song means, I am trying to make my life a YES. To be the person I want to be, the mother, scholar, wife, healer, lover, servant that I am, to be on the road to Emmaeus. My heart is burning within me.
