Spring:Cleaning::Autumn:?

Spring and Autumn, for me, are both seasons of change and preparation. As the cool wind now blows, I am more inspired to clean up and clean out. I want my body and my environment to be somewhere I want to be for the next months of cold and isolation.

This song has really inspired me lately. I know the association is oblique, but roll with it.

It's a song about hanging on to things that belong to another time. Somehow singing it makes me ready to say goodbye to the unhealthy parts of me that I have clung to.

Tomorrow I go back to the Y. Nico (3yo) has a swim lesson, and, I WILL be there early so that Cyril can be in the nursery and Nico can be on time. Then I can dash upstairs and get in my "run."
My first full day at WW is going well. It is a relief for now to just track and follow the plan. But I refuse to think about food all day long. Time for a little bedtime yoga and prayer. God be with us!

Are you who you want to be?

The truth is, I'm not really ready to lose weight.

But the truth also is, I'm not  ready to stay this heavy and risk getting heavier. I want to move more, do more. So my goals this week are to exercise 30 minutes everyday (and track it- see tab) and journal about my food choices. I would also like to focus on drinking water and making some healthier food choices, especially in the quantity department. I intend to track my weight loss (see the tab) but I am not setting any specific weight loss goals at this point or implementing any special or specific diet.

I have reduced the size of my morning cereal, with no ill effects. I went back to measuring with a measuring cup: 1 cup Grape Nut Flakes and 1 cup milk. I used 2% because I was out of Skim, but that has been rectified. I did have more pizza at lunch than I should have - I think I just wanted to get it out of the house! I did have a salad with dinner. And snack was hot chocolate made with skim dry milk, cocoa and a little sugar. Chocolate fix fixed!

Here is the song that has been an inspiration for many life changes. It played in the car while I was thinking of how I might be healthier and what I could realistically commit to. -



From "This is Your Life" by Switchfoot

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

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I hope in one sense that I will always answer no, I am not perfected. But in the sense that I believe the song means, I am trying to make my life a YES. To be the person I want to be, the mother, scholar, wife, healer, lover, servant that I am, to be on the road to Emmaeus. My heart is burning within me.